Poet's Ballad

"Oktober wird bald vorbei; Verlässt mich mit meinem Gedächtnis; Verschiedene Gefühle wurden gefühlt; Möchte alles nochmal erleben..." -J- Hallo, Wie gehts? Wie fandst du deinen Tag? Ist alles okay gelaufen? Oktober wird bald weggehen, wirst du  irgendwie solche Tage vermissen? Na ja, ich fand, dass mein Oktobertag ab und zu nicht schlecht war. Viel Gedächtnis mit verschiedenen Gefühlen habe ich in Oktober gehabt. Wäre sie länger geblieben, wäre es einfach krass. Leider frage ich wieder zurzeit, was das Ziel meines Lebens ist. Was wäre die Antwort? Geld, Liebe oder was? Ich glaub' einfach dran, dass jeder ohne solche Verehrung nicht leben könnte. Ist man abhängig von Anderen, kann man noch vielleicht die Verantwortung nehmen? Bist du bereit, um die Realität anzunehmen? Oder willst du nur was schönes haben, ohne was schlechtes zu erfahren? Es gibt die sogennante Zitat, die lautet, dass es viele Wege nach Rom gibt. Es bedeutet für mich, dass das Leb...

"Weine nicht wenn der Regen fällt; Erzähle nicht wenn du unbereit bist; Reue nicht wenn du dich verliebt hast." -J-

Broken mirror hanged on the wall; Reflecting your image which was so pale; Deflecting every truth into lies; Your eyes are so glazed; Tears were covered by dust of sadness; Beyond a thousand miles you're lingering waiting for something uncertain; Looking for something which is buried under million pieces of memory; Everything slowly becomes grey, is it me who is drenched now? Every teardrop is affection which can't be shown; Possessing you seems to be my ego; Loving you seems to be my desire; Being tired with reality and disappointed by expectation; Pretending to be apathetic because I care; Waiting endlessly just make me sick; Autumn just arrived, flowers are dying; Weeping gently and howling stealthily; Rain washed your silhouette and fragrance; Leaving emptiness without residual; Every pieces of mirror became dust; Unbearably my thoughts flown and invoked by the north wind; Every attachment slowly broken off; Leaving wound inside my heart; Eternal...

Memories melt easily like snow; Missing someone who I loved so badly; Writing a rhyme full of metaphors; Words are flying permeate through your vein but not your heart; My pen is dancing back and forth on the paper; Trying to describe how important is you for me; Every teardrop is a single word which is unspeakable and can't be told to you; Torment and heartbroken become one and eternal with the ink; How long can these ink strokes marked before withered then leaves without traces? How long can a sweet memory stayed in the bitterness? Even you're afraid of pain, You're still carving it on my heart? Writing a separation using a beautiful lie, Truthful but hurtful; Love isn't easy as a fairytale which has a happy ending; Happiness is just only in forever shortage in this mundane world; Pursuing someone uncertain with every single word which is faded with her silhouette; Million craving illusion which impossible to embodied, slowly incandescent giving str...

They say we can buy happiness; Will happiness be forever after? As long as the life wheel spins very fast? Where is your promises happiness? You say that happiness is the end of our story; The clock stucked on the wall, our story has already ended long time ago; But you're still here and starting to vanish your existence from me; One story million missing pieces two people memories; Rain is dripping and bringing dimness and melancholy, after rain it started to rain hardly again; Cloud gathered and painted the face that I love the most; Slowly shattered then separated by tears; Why must my tears fall for you? Don't you know that every single teardrop is love; It's the untold word which is buried inside my heart; How are you know? Are you getting all along fine? Gently and surely you're leaving me now; When I need your love; You weren't here again; No more sadness and happiness; Being hurt then time will secretly recover me; Silently keepi...

Crows were making lot of noise; Wind stealthily come and leave without traces; Thou mysteriously vanished with the north wind; Your aroma which is ingested by the dense fog of incense; Bringing unparalleled bitterness which is ended by brokenhearted; Happiness vanished along with separation; Raindrop is slowly falling down along the dejection night; My tears is flowing down through my facade smile; Untold words buried inside my heart with your memory; A big fracture which is appeared on my mind; Gradually widened then break every feeling into million pieces; Black rose languished, words are silent; Rain which is not finished yet washed your face from my story; There's no happiness laugh nor sweet smile again; Only dust of emptiness which is covered my heart; Monotonous melody which is echoed in the air; Giving dejection that can't be reject again; My shadow gently disappeared in the darkness night; Blinded by the light of truth which is hurtful; Staring ...

The Rain slowly dripping, remind me every shreds memory about you; The raindrop of sadness covered my eyes; Indescribable words that can't be told started to falling from my eyes; Giving a little bit consolation for the raged storm in my heart; Honestly I've been suffered by the reality of this world; listening to the rhythm of the pouring rain, make me want to go back to the past; The sound of the wind which is full of regret; Framed me by my own melancholic feeling and my woeful memory; Wind sings a lullaby which is so dejected for me; Clouds portray a silhouette that I really know so well; Whether nature is trying to fooled me by playing my emotion? Perhaps it's so near but i can't reach; Perhaps it's so real but it's untrue; Perhaps it's so sweet but it's sorrowful; Waiting thoroughly your presence that never come; Permeate my vein and plundering my warmthness; Stepped folowing the flow of the river; Drowned by the grief and wand...

The night which is so long, Wind blown as long as my waiting; As though averse my existence Forming the ice cold of hopelessness into frost tear; Languished and suffered in this mundane world; I've been faltered full of Hesitancy ..... Convulsions by the suffering that must I feel; Slightly sighing frustrated and condemn myself; My tears are slowly dripping, wiped it by sniffer called apathetic; But the more I wiped it, the more its come; Using a beautiful rhyme, singing in the loneliness; Trying to decribe my sadness which is shredding my soul; The rhythm of the north wind which is reverberate; Jeering me and laughing loudly to me; Snowflakes are falling trying to conceal my existence; Ice keeps my feeling ; As though prevent it from rotting; Wind is blowing and piercing my soul, take my awareness; Sleeping and buried under million tons of ice; Can't feel anything anymore; Loving is suffering, loving is lamentable; But why am I still love you? Snowfl...

How long did the flower needs to bloom? Before its started to dying slowly and surely; How long can I stayed in this circumstances? Before I started to weeping full of regrets? Flowers only bloom and mature once; My love also just grow and come once; So beautiful but fragile; Already used to not going to disturb you again; Really wanna to forget you but I can't; Why is it like this? Why fog of hesitation come to covered me? Lost me in the indescribable feeling again; Giving deep bitterly wounds in my heart; Which is expand and shattered my heart into million pieces; Heartfelt words are not truthful; It just only set my heart to say a truthful lie; Perhaps I don't love, I don't feel pain, but I can't; Why did I think you were beautiful? Why did I love you more than myself? Why didn't you treat me equally? Why? Have I done something' wrong? All my words are fade; Like a Blossom Chrysanthemum paled then withered; Being emotionless; A...

Stranded at the desert of loneliness; North wind comes to blow; Blowing the sadness and murkiness to me; Slowly fading my portrait in the sand; Ripping all my emotion into million pieces; Who am I in this mundane world? Being ignored and forgotten; Living without affection and attention; Dizzy 'cause drinking too much suffering; Depressed facing the circumstances; Being treated like an imitation flowers; Which is beautiful but fake; Trying hard to pretend it; It seems that I'm no longer needed; Perhaps in a different time and space; Still holding my tears, buried my emotion deeply; Taking my thoughts to travel for unaccountable years; Through the desert of loneliness; Across the ocean of grief; Right now trying to get used to living alone; Starting new life called ignorance; Some words are always too late; They have been buried at the bottom of my heart; I wanted to look for at it attentively; But I passed it; Only pain and suffering which are left...

Mundane world is very intoxicated; Dream world is so real; Walking for million miles without an unsure reason; Beyond the limit of space and time; Through the boundaries of the mundane world and heading to dream world; Trying to reveal a big mystery; Mysteries which are very melancholic and romantic; Trying to figure out your name with million possibilities; And finding where are you now, which is unbelievable; Can make million of your painting, but it is hard to copy down your beauty; Can make million song for you, but it's can't be compare with your voice; Confused and frustrated, like a blind man trying to find a light; Asking myself for an absolute answer; Who are you? And where are you? Love, you are an unreal illusion which is hypnotize! Beautiful but mysterious! Separated by space and time; Trying to find the real you; In this intoxicated mundane world; heading towards the mundane world to leave the dream world; Remember all of my previous memori...